I think I'm on the verge of just saying 'Fuck it'
I don't give a damn anymore
Well, I think I do..I just don't want to
I want to give him up. I really really do.
You don't know how desperate i am to give up these feelings.
damn hormones...they always come too late.
I can't wait till this is all over.
May is coming.
I think it's time to move on.
Spent a month waiting for nothing.
Now it's time to move on...
I'm going to take a nap.
Whatever.
Bye.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Already?
Soooooo...
I'm thinking of giving up now (:
wooo~
==
It was too hot this week D:
96 degrees in April??
SOMETHING'S wrong...
==
Today was the Geometry STAR testing shit...
hella easy :D 'cept for the transformation parts =.=
didn't learn them..>____<
Oh well..after everyone was done, Juan Chriseli, Troy, and I gathered around
and started play UNO w/Juan's cards
HELLA funny XD
Cuz we were all gaining up on Troy...
Like Juan would help me, and when Troy reaches to one card,
he ALWAYS forget to say "UNO" so he gets the whole deck
LMAO it was hilarious ;]
And then he kept squirting me with his water bottle =____="
jerk xP
haha, i love you tooo
XD
That's all...really XD
I hate how before, when Troy had all those problems, Sandon could help me get get my mind off of them. Now when Sandon has problems, Troy can easily make me forget about them xP
LMAO ironic...
Well, i'm out.
Have a good week.
I'm thinking of giving up now (:
wooo~
==
It was too hot this week D:
96 degrees in April??
SOMETHING'S wrong...
==
Today was the Geometry STAR testing shit...
hella easy :D 'cept for the transformation parts =.=
didn't learn them..>____<
Oh well..after everyone was done, Juan Chriseli, Troy, and I gathered around
and started play UNO w/Juan's cards
HELLA funny XD
Cuz we were all gaining up on Troy...
Like Juan would help me, and when Troy reaches to one card,
he ALWAYS forget to say "UNO" so he gets the whole deck
LMAO it was hilarious ;]
And then he kept squirting me with his water bottle =____="
jerk xP
haha, i love you tooo
XD
That's all...really XD
I hate how before, when Troy had all those problems, Sandon could help me get get my mind off of them. Now when Sandon has problems, Troy can easily make me forget about them xP
LMAO ironic...
Well, i'm out.
Have a good week.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
TAG! You're It!
Tagged by: Carol. Since i have nothing else to do, ima do this. =]
Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.
1) I'm scared of pigeons
HAHA, it when this one time when i was little, I was in Chinatown and these pigeons just flew right in front of me. Scared the fuck outta me...been scared ever since XD
2) It would've been out 1 month a week ago if Sandon hadn't stopped and said we only wanted to be friends. Well, he said we better stay friends until spring break was over so..I don't know what's happening now =/
3) I don't mind shopping as I did before. I guess because I finally figured out how I looked in just a plain T-shirt so I guess I'm dressing up a bit more...fashionally XD
4) I actually like the spend more times with guys. They make me laugh XD I mean, girls are better when it comes to like...a girl talk.; But guys are just funny =) I have an equal amount of friends of both genders. The problem is, my sister and brother only has 1 gender of friends...weird...
5) I'm quite disorganized. You might think I am, because I might have like...3 binders from different classes, but Those binders aren't really for 3 separate classes. I put math papers in my bio binder and spanish work in my geography binder.
6) I don't' like to text. Why don't people just call me? I mean, I understand that people feel weird when they talk on the phone, but texting is just toooooo slow for me. But I'll repect their choices and text back.
7) Speaking of texting...I CAN'T STAND how people just reply if "Oh" or "Okay." I mean come on? How am I suppose to reply to thatt? And why do you even bother typing it and sending it? It's just a waste of text.
8) I find it annoying when P30Pl3 B3 TyPiinG LyK ThiiZ, . Ahahaha I hella feel like highlighting that whole fact and deleting it by just staring at it :) I don't understand how people struggle so much to not be able to type like a normal civilized person.
9) I hate it when people talk about themselves, Like constantly. I also hate it when people say negative things about themselves. It either makes me feel bad, or gets me down knowing that i can't help that person.
10) I actually don't mind being lied too. A friend lied to me about..well...his whole life and when he told me, I'm like "Oh...it's okay." And when like, a friend lies about homework or something, I'm like "Oh...it's okay." I guess that's just me. :P
11) I can't save up. I might be able to for like...a few weeks..but then I end up spending it on food.
12) I LOVE playing with those little kids. Like, when I go to a playground, I ask to play with the little kids. Tag is the best game :D
13) I've always wanted a camera XD Never got on though :[ because my parents already owns two digital cameras, and they're like "Why you need another one?"
14) I like to think a lot. I hate how people say "Are you okay?" when I am just fucking THINKING. I mean, come on..you guys have your time to think too right? So when I'm staring at the ground thinking, and people ask me what's wrong, i get annoyed. It's nice for you to care, but I think it's even nicer of you mind your own business.
15) I'm super duper shy. I hate being put on the spot light, i have a tendency to turn red =/ How embarrassing.
16) If you squeeze by arm muscle, I get paranoid. I think that's my ticklish spot.
17) I don't like the word "i love you." Because they really don't mean it, most of the time. There a BIG difference between like and love. the word "LOVE" can't be thrown around easily.
18) Almost anything can make me laugh. I can't help but laugh (: Even when no one thinks it's funny, I burst out laughing. People look at me weird O___o
19) I only have a few friends that I count as my..."friends that will stay with me after high school." Those friend know who they are (: I'm actually only thinking of...2 friends XD
20) I spend too much time on the computer. I just love to talk to AIM with peoples. It's fun talking about random shit when there's no point in the conversation. The thing is...most people I talk to are boys...the only girl I really talk to is Naomi =/
21) I actually wanna be a doctor that take care of patients. i want to be one of those doctors that deal with some unknown disease. I find it really interesting (:
22) I'm full blood Chinese. Deal with it.
23) My sister and I have NOTHING alike. Cause she so lightt and i'm hella dark compared to her hahaha. We have nothing in common too lmao xD
24)I have alot of strong opinions, and i can have a bit a of a big mouth, But whats been said, has been said, and you can't fully take back things like that. But heres the thing, Whatever the words come out of my mouth, i really mean it, most of the time anyways. Sure some bitches spread shit and misinterpret what i say, but it's whatever. The reals folks would go to me to first to ask me about it, and those drama seekers must enjoy getting false information from others.
25) I love strawberries
I tag whoever want's to do it :P
Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.
1) I'm scared of pigeons
HAHA, it when this one time when i was little, I was in Chinatown and these pigeons just flew right in front of me. Scared the fuck outta me...been scared ever since XD
2) It would've been out 1 month a week ago if Sandon hadn't stopped and said we only wanted to be friends. Well, he said we better stay friends until spring break was over so..I don't know what's happening now =/
3) I don't mind shopping as I did before. I guess because I finally figured out how I looked in just a plain T-shirt so I guess I'm dressing up a bit more...fashionally XD
4) I actually like the spend more times with guys. They make me laugh XD I mean, girls are better when it comes to like...a girl talk.; But guys are just funny =) I have an equal amount of friends of both genders. The problem is, my sister and brother only has 1 gender of friends...weird...
5) I'm quite disorganized. You might think I am, because I might have like...3 binders from different classes, but Those binders aren't really for 3 separate classes. I put math papers in my bio binder and spanish work in my geography binder.
6) I don't' like to text. Why don't people just call me? I mean, I understand that people feel weird when they talk on the phone, but texting is just toooooo slow for me. But I'll repect their choices and text back.
7) Speaking of texting...I CAN'T STAND how people just reply if "Oh" or "Okay." I mean come on? How am I suppose to reply to thatt? And why do you even bother typing it and sending it? It's just a waste of text.
8) I find it annoying when P30Pl3 B3 TyPiinG LyK ThiiZ, . Ahahaha I hella feel like highlighting that whole fact and deleting it by just staring at it :) I don't understand how people struggle so much to not be able to type like a normal civilized person.
9) I hate it when people talk about themselves, Like constantly. I also hate it when people say negative things about themselves. It either makes me feel bad, or gets me down knowing that i can't help that person.
10) I actually don't mind being lied too. A friend lied to me about..well...his whole life and when he told me, I'm like "Oh...it's okay." And when like, a friend lies about homework or something, I'm like "Oh...it's okay." I guess that's just me. :P
11) I can't save up. I might be able to for like...a few weeks..but then I end up spending it on food.
12) I LOVE playing with those little kids. Like, when I go to a playground, I ask to play with the little kids. Tag is the best game :D
13) I've always wanted a camera XD Never got on though :[ because my parents already owns two digital cameras, and they're like "Why you need another one?"
14) I like to think a lot. I hate how people say "Are you okay?" when I am just fucking THINKING. I mean, come on..you guys have your time to think too right? So when I'm staring at the ground thinking, and people ask me what's wrong, i get annoyed. It's nice for you to care, but I think it's even nicer of you mind your own business.
15) I'm super duper shy. I hate being put on the spot light, i have a tendency to turn red =/ How embarrassing.
16) If you squeeze by arm muscle, I get paranoid. I think that's my ticklish spot.
17) I don't like the word "i love you." Because they really don't mean it, most of the time. There a BIG difference between like and love. the word "LOVE" can't be thrown around easily.
18) Almost anything can make me laugh. I can't help but laugh (: Even when no one thinks it's funny, I burst out laughing. People look at me weird O___o
19) I only have a few friends that I count as my..."friends that will stay with me after high school." Those friend know who they are (: I'm actually only thinking of...2 friends XD
20) I spend too much time on the computer. I just love to talk to AIM with peoples. It's fun talking about random shit when there's no point in the conversation. The thing is...most people I talk to are boys...the only girl I really talk to is Naomi =/
21) I actually wanna be a doctor that take care of patients. i want to be one of those doctors that deal with some unknown disease. I find it really interesting (:
22) I'm full blood Chinese. Deal with it.
23) My sister and I have NOTHING alike. Cause she so lightt and i'm hella dark compared to her hahaha. We have nothing in common too lmao xD
24)I have alot of strong opinions, and i can have a bit a of a big mouth, But whats been said, has been said, and you can't fully take back things like that. But heres the thing, Whatever the words come out of my mouth, i really mean it, most of the time anyways. Sure some bitches spread shit and misinterpret what i say, but it's whatever. The reals folks would go to me to first to ask me about it, and those drama seekers must enjoy getting false information from others.
25) I love strawberries
I tag whoever want's to do it :P
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Unforgivable
Yeah sooooo,
My OFFICIAL PROBLEMS:
+ I can't seem to get over him
And HOW did I know that?
Sandon's always commenting on Stacy's facebook statuses Stacy added the PIRATES applications on facebook when Sandon's the only other person playing the app. I saw a snip of their conversation (Stacy's status) on AIM and it seems like a good chat--they had SOMETHING to talk about at least...
Sandon's always talking to Stacy in PE, always making fun of her Stacy's always wondering where Sandon's PE class is...she makes the excuse of seeing Naomi >P [[Yesss;; I'm jealous >O
Quite.]]
+Seem's like Troy is avoiding Naomi or me?
+I learned something about child abuse.
Something that's happening to my friends.
+Troy and I have this whole convo argument thing about revenge and lies. Is revenge a good thing?
Can things get any worse? D:
ANDDD I have a recital this weekend too...
Fuckkk
My OFFICIAL PROBLEMS:
+ I can't seem to get over him
And HOW did I know that?
- Simple--I check online on his status on facbook everyday
- I get jealous..a lot
- I can't stop thinking about him
- I always want to see him
Quite.]]
+Seem's like Troy is avoiding Naomi or me?
- He didn't say anything to her after school
- Didn't come at lunch
- We walked by him--pretended that he didn't see us..or he REALLY didn't see us...either one >___<
+I learned something about child abuse.
Something that's happening to my friends.
+Troy and I have this whole convo argument thing about revenge and lies. Is revenge a good thing?
Can things get any worse? D:
ANDDD I have a recital this weekend too...
Fuckkk
Friday, April 10, 2009
Chinkytown
Yeah, so I really don't wanna sound like this is those diary entries how we talk about your day and shit, but it's going to be one today (: ANDD--there won't be much pictures T_T Sadly, I had too much fun to worry about pictures D: -regret-
SO--Chinatown Day
..you know. I think I'm just going to skip to the main times where we had lotsa fun (:
We (as in Naomi, Troy, Stacy, Carmen, Sandon, and me) ate at Shooting Star Cafe. It was okaiies...'cept that Sandon looked HELLA bored. Show some respect maan !
Anyways, after that, we sorta roamed around aimlessly...then Sandon wanted some "real food" instead of the "crap" that was sold in the cafe. Screw him =____="
He went to eat some Vietnemese food with Troy, while we 4 went to the playground.
I played with these really fun --but really mean mind you,--kids (: One kept headbutting me DX
This playground:
It was next to a basketball area. (Yeah, this pic was from the net)
Okay. So anyways, I played Tag for like..and hour n a half when Sandon and Troy came back. Then THEYY want to play tag, so i sorta played with them. There was this one little girl that acted just like me--she was like a monkey..climbing everywhere. I was a show off back then too lmao XD
We took BART back home and yeah...Stacy got HELLLLLLA pissed
dunno why O_O
I think it's cause of Sandon (damn you Sandon...he doesn't know that his remarks hurt like...A LOT)
Cuz on the BART, Stacy took a seat next to this one black dude...
then she moved to a seat next to this one woman
And Sandon's like "What's wrong with sitting there next to this guy?" and "Then why did you move?"
Fuck...he really doesn't know when to stop does he? =____="
Then Troy's hat (he's been trying to hide his hair since it's so short) was taken off by Sandon. No one but Sandon and I saw though =) so it's alllll goooooood.
We went to TapEx (Stacy went home)
And we basically hung out there for like...10 minutes until Troy had to leave 'nd Sandon had to go back to play Warcraft XP
Oh well....
If I had to rate this day, I would rate it...a 7/10
Because if Stacy 'nd Sandon. Well...that's to the kids it made it higher
LMAO
Talk to you laterrrr,
I'm outt.
SO--Chinatown Day
..you know. I think I'm just going to skip to the main times where we had lotsa fun (:
We (as in Naomi, Troy, Stacy, Carmen, Sandon, and me) ate at Shooting Star Cafe. It was okaiies...'cept that Sandon looked HELLA bored. Show some respect maan !
Anyways, after that, we sorta roamed around aimlessly...then Sandon wanted some "real food" instead of the "crap" that was sold in the cafe. Screw him =____="
He went to eat some Vietnemese food with Troy, while we 4 went to the playground.
I played with these really fun --but really mean mind you,--kids (: One kept headbutting me DX
This playground:
It was next to a basketball area. (Yeah, this pic was from the net)
Okay. So anyways, I played Tag for like..and hour n a half when Sandon and Troy came back. Then THEYY want to play tag, so i sorta played with them. There was this one little girl that acted just like me--she was like a monkey..climbing everywhere. I was a show off back then too lmao XD
We took BART back home and yeah...Stacy got HELLLLLLA pissed
dunno why O_O
I think it's cause of Sandon (damn you Sandon...he doesn't know that his remarks hurt like...A LOT)
Cuz on the BART, Stacy took a seat next to this one black dude...
then she moved to a seat next to this one woman
And Sandon's like "What's wrong with sitting there next to this guy?" and "Then why did you move?"
Fuck...he really doesn't know when to stop does he? =____="
Then Troy's hat (he's been trying to hide his hair since it's so short) was taken off by Sandon. No one but Sandon and I saw though =) so it's alllll goooooood.
We went to TapEx (Stacy went home)
And we basically hung out there for like...10 minutes until Troy had to leave 'nd Sandon had to go back to play Warcraft XP
Oh well....
If I had to rate this day, I would rate it...a 7/10
Because if Stacy 'nd Sandon. Well...that's to the kids it made it higher
LMAO
Talk to you laterrrr,
I'm outt.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
SO FAR
Spring break has been hella boring :[
nothing to do =___="
we'll, it's still the weekends so I don't know X)
But yesterday was boring
Well, we went over to Stephanie's house :D
Killed time there...
And We're planning a reunion with the other peeps toooo !
Can't wait to see them !!
Friday: Chinkytown again !
W/Sofy, Naomi, Stacy, Carmen, Adriel, Troy, 'nd Sandon (??)
He said he might go. I sorta want him to go..but sorta don't =__=
cuz I know he can easily ruin the mood of the whole group ):
This spring break, he must feel happy--he gets to see his SF friends again =)
We're friends now. Nothing more.
I think it's best to stay like this from now on.
Much love,
JENNAY ;]
nothing to do =___="
we'll, it's still the weekends so I don't know X)
But yesterday was boring
Well, we went over to Stephanie's house :D
Killed time there...
And We're planning a reunion with the other peeps toooo !
Can't wait to see them !!
Friday: Chinkytown again !
W/Sofy, Naomi, Stacy, Carmen, Adriel, Troy, 'nd Sandon (??)
He said he might go. I sorta want him to go..but sorta don't =__=
cuz I know he can easily ruin the mood of the whole group ):
This spring break, he must feel happy--he gets to see his SF friends again =)
We're friends now. Nothing more.
I think it's best to stay like this from now on.
Much love,
JENNAY ;]
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Bullshit.
I'm tired of all these bullshit.
I hate it.
I want to stop it now.
I want to be a kid again.
Care-free
Burden-free
No having all these friend problems
No relationships
Being looked after
not worrying about the future
Yes; I want to be a kid again.
I hate it.
I want to stop it now.
I want to be a kid again.
Care-free
Burden-free
No having all these friend problems
No relationships
Being looked after
not worrying about the future
Yes; I want to be a kid again.
Endings
Soooooo; Sandon and i broke up ;D
For some odd reason, I don't feel sad...
I think abcause my feelings for him we're really confident and i was like
'i like him..i don't..i do...i don't'
and now that he's gone..id DIDN'T feel sad
but he's on my mind lately..like, I can't get him out of my mind..
dammit, have i really fallen for him?
Stop, I'm going to get hurt. Stop it right now Jenny.
| dumkids9999 (8:42:02 PM): | I need to stay friends with u for now i till I get things settled during spring break |
so...yeah O___O
yippee right?
Oh wells...I think he likes Stacy now..like he's been talking to her a lot on FB...
I don't know why...but when i think of that..
my heart hurts
HAHA stupid me right? xD
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
SOMETHING's wrong...
I swear to god...something is up
Is Sandon like..not talking to me or something?
Something that I have NO idea about?
I really want to know. I really do.
Because if he doesn't like me anymore, the he should say it.
If he keeps making me thinking that he likes me, then I'll start falling for him.
(I already sorta am...)
But I wish he talked to me more...
I want to know what's on his mind
I want...I want to help.
He's so hard to go up to though...
Like, he doesn't talk to me...
then starts holding my hand...but keeps listening to his music...
NOT TALKING
I'm like..WTF?! *sighs in frustration*
You know what? Fuck it.
Fuck all my problems. I hate the month of March.
Thank god it's almost over.
Is Sandon like..not talking to me or something?
Something that I have NO idea about?
I really want to know. I really do.
Because if he doesn't like me anymore, the he should say it.
If he keeps making me thinking that he likes me, then I'll start falling for him.
(I already sorta am...)
But I wish he talked to me more...
I want to know what's on his mind
I want...I want to help.
He's so hard to go up to though...
Like, he doesn't talk to me...
then starts holding my hand...but keeps listening to his music...
NOT TALKING
I'm like..WTF?! *sighs in frustration*
You know what? Fuck it.
Fuck all my problems. I hate the month of March.
Thank god it's almost over.
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