Abnormal

It's abnormal. To have such a low heartbeat.
48 bpm. TOOO slow right?
Fuck...Troy needs to take better care of his health.
He's seeing the doctors today.
*prays he gets better W/O brain surgery*

Okay...so anyways,

This week passed by WAYYY too fast.
It's already Sunday T___T
You know, the closer I get with Sandon, the more it hurts...X(
because I'm scared,
no wait, scared isn't a strong enough word,
I'm terrified that my mom will find out.
I think I'm really starting to like him now...
except for the fact that he's similar to Troy, making fun of people so much xP
and he's always giving glares at people...
WTF..LOL xD
We've been holding hands and his arms are around my shoulder...
I wonder when my sister will find out and tell my parents...
OH ! I have to tell everyone..(everyone meaning the people who talk to my sister)
that she can't know about our relationship.

I feel so unprotected, like I'm in a middle of the field and all the arrows are shooting right at me.
Do you think it's a good idea to lie to my parents?
Telling them that I'm hanging out with
Carmen, Sofy, Naomi, and Christine
while i'm really going on a date? (double date LOLOL)

I really don't know. I don't think Sandon can protect me from that.
I know my parents won't accept him either.
I don't know what to do.
I guess we'll just have to see..won't we?
I'll face it though, alone.
I'm not going to drag anyone else into this.
Especially not innocent people.

HAHA, i just noticed, recently, I haven't been posting any picturesssss
SO, here:


Will you be my music? Sandon?


If not, who will?